Raphael Meade

I was gonna do this as a video blogg, but because my beauty has faded (feeling run down right now) I decided to spare you the pain of a dreadful sight. Flitting through the journal, date 28th March 2016. The entry is ‘who will pair up with whom?? Yes, just 5 days in and those…

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10 June 2016 Eden diary entry

During Eden, from time to time I kept a diary. This is an entry from June 2010. As I lie here at 10 pm in my sleeping bag the night before a morning I am dreading, I question why and how I’ve got into this situation. Tomorrow, I am due to do the washing up…

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Raphael Meade

The weather is bleak from day one. No! From the moment I entered Scotland!! It’s saying to me, ‘what you doing here city boy? This ain’t your manor! And don’t I know it!!??!!’ We begin by introducing ourselves to one another. Each time a new arrival pops out of the woods they are greeted with…

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Raphael Meade

It’s July 2015 and I receive a call from a producer of Eden. Cut a long story short I hang up thinking it a prank call. ‘I ain’t got time for jokes.’ The following day, another call. This is serious! “You what? You want me to go away from my home and family for one…

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Greece

This is an updated version of a diary entry I wrote in Athens during September 2016, shortly after leaving Eden.  Greece is an amazing place! I felt comfortable and relaxed, but also inspired to think about which way to go next and what I might be able to do in future — looking back, I…

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The Parthenon

This is an updated version of a diary entry I wrote in Athens during September 2016, shortly after leaving Eden.  I woke up in my new Eden, although this one had a comfortable bed and all the luxuries of modern living. After a delicious breakfast of cheese pie, I was whisked away to the barber…

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View from an aircraft window

This is an updated version of a diary entry I wrote in September 2016, shortly after leaving Eden.  After leaving Eden, Raf and I were standing in the airport and utterly uncertain about how we had been received by viewers of the show. Then, someone walked over to Raf and said they thought he was amazing!…

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Anton in shallow water

This is an updated version of a diary entry I wrote shortly after leaving Eden, on or around 3 September 2016.  In the aftermath of my departure from Eden, I think I was more in a state of bewilderment than shock. In terms of my state of mind, I went from being prepared and ready…

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Anton in Eden

I had no intention of blogging today. My time in Eden is over and it was other peoples experience to share now. But after watching last night’s episode…. Well, where do I start? It’s not exaggerating to say that I felt physically sick during the programme. I found myself shaking with anger, and my partner sat…

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Anton and Raf illustration

I found it very hard to focus on writing this. My phone has been going all day and I feel completely overwhelmed by everything that has happened since my final appearance on Eden: Paradise Lost aired last night. Overwhelmed in a very positive way, because the support that Raph and I are receiving is unbelievable…

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