I found it very hard to focus on writing this. My phone has been going all day and I feel completely overwhelmed by everything that has happened since my final appearance on Eden: Paradise Lost aired last night. Overwhelmed in a very positive way, because the support that Raph and I are receiving is unbelievable and words can’t describe how grateful we both are.
As you can probably imagine, the outcome of my time in Eden wasn’t what I’d hoped for — but rarely is, and the trick is to dust yourself off and try again. I’m quite pleased with the programme and how accurately it represented what happened.
I made the decision not to follow Twitter last night, as I wanted to share the episode with my partner who, in many ways, had to go through the whole 5 months with me. What we don’t appreciate when we do these things is the impact it has on the people left at home. Both Raph and I found strength in talking about our partners in there, and the realisation of how important they really are can be life-changing. It certainly has been for me.
Anyway, I was expecting to have a few messages from people but the conversation generated by last night’s programme is inspiring. I’ve spent the whole day responding, liking, retweeting and I want to thank you all for your many kind words. A lot of people can clearly relate to our experience and it’s refreshing to see people coming together around issues of bullying, misogyny, and the other themes explored by Eden. The more we talk about these issues the sooner things will improve. Let’s keep positive — this is an opportunity to show that a level-headed response will always win out in the end. I’ve learned that you need to have patience and share your views but don’t feel the need to retaliate (says the man that burnt his house down)!
Now you know the details of my story, I want to share what happened after I left. It’s just as amazing and I hope inspiring. I wrote blogs throughout the whole time and I will share them with you after the show has finished. They are quite raw as you can imagine but I think that honesty is always appreciated.
Remember: It will all be alright in the end, and if it’s not all right, it’s not the end.